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You know, for a self professed writer, I sure do suck at updating my journal.  I've had some negative thing happen with some other social media sites and honestly, now I'm scared to post anything, anywhere.  I don't go out of my way to piss people off, it seems like sometimes my unique brand of humour does that for me, or just a matter of being who I am.  At one point in time, my life was an open book, now I realized that no one can criticize me if I don't offer information.  I can't keep hiding all the time, but I'm trying to find a balance of offering too much info vs hiding under a rock.

That being said, I now have a new job.  Sort of.  It's only part time, so I cut back my hours at the other place.  This was one of those things I was hesitant to mention for fear someone would think I'm posting this for attention or demand to know why I got a new job etc...  Yes, I'm a tad paranoid, I fully admit it. LOL

But the job is going well.  I'm really enjoying it and everything is so structured.  It's an OCD's paradise.  Structure, order, paper trails, I love it!  I'm also taking up web programming on the side.  Things have been incredibly busy lately because of it, trying to juggle my personal life with additional projects just to help me make some extra cash.

Unfortunately, a lot of my projects have suffered because of it.  I'm still working on "Burden of Proof".  It's almost done, but I need to rewrite a few things and have it go for more editing sessions.  I'm also working on the "Marked for Death" podcast and attempting to redo the backend of my Nightcat site.

Things have been a tad stressful.  It's weird in a way because I do believe I've worked hard and made progress dealing with stress, but a few weeks ago I ended up at emerg for a few hours, they think I have an ulcer.  It's not life threatening or anything, but it was like a blow to the face.  After working so hard and being so sure I was getting better, they tell me that.  I'm going to see a specialist next month and they'll likely do a scope to find out exactly what the issue is with my stomach.  It kind of sucks but I'm like "Yeah,whatever"  I've never had surgery before, never been put under before and it freaks me out, losing control.  Hell, when I was in emerg that morning, that was the first time I had an IV in me.  I didn't freak out, but it was unsettling.  I can handle needles but the idea of something being half inside me and half out of me sends shivers down my spine.

I really got to get better at managing my time and I apologize for my lack of art/writing/presence on dA the last little while.  I do check my messages every day, so I am on dA, I'm just not contributing as much as I'd like.  I hope in the next month(s) that will change.
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xayoz77's avatar
If nothing else keep me posted by text so M and I know you're ok. Get better, and yes, post more stuff... ;p
The hardest thing to do is stop caring what other people say and just have fun...but once you do...it's very liberating.